The mouth speaks what the heart is full of

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A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.  Luke 6 v 45

How is your heart? What is it full of?

Sometimes I can catch myself in the middle of a rant, a verbal outpouring if you like. I have pulled out my soap box and I am standing on it having a loud say about something. It is my poor husband who gets to hear these little out pourings but most of the time I am just going over it in my head. Thankfully the soap box is just a metaphorical one in my head and it never makes it out into the wide open space of life!

These out pourings are a result of what is going on in my heart.

Let me give you a hypothetical… I begin to vent at the fact that somebody has just bought a new car. I begin to go on about how they already had a car that worked perfectly fine, I tell others that I believe it is a miss use of finances, they should be more wise, they have everything, it is not fair, rant, rant, rant, rant. My heart is then full of jealousy.

The mouth will speak what the heart is full of.

If my heart is full of jealousy then my mouth will speak harsh and condemning words. In my heart I am comparing myself to others, They get things that I don’t therefore I am not loved enough, I am not worthy enough. Or it could go in the opposite direction of look at them being so foolish with their finances, they should be wise like me. Either way, what is happening in the heart is not a good thing.

I know my heart needs a good detox. I need to replace those things that are not good for me with things that will nourish my heart and soul so that my mouth will speak life. I need to replace jealousy with love. Love of myself and to know that I am worthy to receive and love for others so that I can rejoice when they receive. To replace doubt with faith. To replace fear and anxiety with strength and courage and to replace brokenness with the love of God.

How is your heart?

Love letters and waffles

imageToday is valentines day and my little boy insisted on us having a small party to celebrate. We decorated our apartment with balloons and love hearts, Will wrote love letters for everybody and we ate waffles for breakfast topped with ice cream and chocolate sauce. It was a lovely start to our day.

I am sure that it was no coincidence that in my bible reading today I read…

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Cor 13 v 4-8

Wonderful words that were penned so long ago and still hold true for us today.

I saw love is kind, love is not self seeking displayed in my boy today. He shares a room with his little sister – he sleeps in a bed but she is still in a cot. When he wakes in the morning she is usually still asleep so he sneaks out of bed and tip toes down stairs to watch his favorite TV show. However this morning when he awoke she did too. He knew that if he left her there alone she would cry and be sad and he didn’t want her to feel that way so he stayed in the room and played with her and therefore missed his favorite TV show. He has such a big, kind and loving heart.

Even at six and a half years old he was able to put his own desires aside to show love to his baby sister and boy does she ever love her big brother! Love never fails.

My desire is to always have this passage of scripture deep in my heart. That I will always be patient and kind and seek only to serve others and to rejoice with them. To fiercely protect those that I love and to have trust, hope and perseverance and to take after my sons wonderful example of loving and caring for the ones that I so dearly love.

Happy valentines day everyone xxxx

 

Always pray and do not give up

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How often do we give up praying when we do not see the answers we think we need? How often do we give up praying when the answers we seek do not fit into our time line of right here right now?

Jesus tells us to always pray and do not give up. To hold firm to our faith.

Gods greatest desire is to have intimacy with us. In to me see. When we give up on praying, when we give up talking with Him, sharing our desires, hurts, fears, passions, thoughts then we are giving up on that relationship with Him. He no longer gets to see in to our hearts.

It is important for us to remember that God is a faithful God who provides. We will see answers to all that we ask. Set aside our time lines and our agendas. Our life stretches beyond this one and sometimes those answers fall onto the  eternity side of life.

God wants us, our hearts, intimacy with Him. For us to pray and to not give up and through that our relationship with Him grows, flourishes and is strengthened. Strengthened so that when our prayers seem like they are taking forever to be answered we still have a firm foundation of faith, we know who God is and we know that we are loved and not abandoned.

So I encourage you to pray and to not give up. Do not come to him with a list of requests but come to Him with your heart. Talk to him, pour out your love and affection and He will pour more of His love and affection into you then you could ever imagine. You will see answers come and fruitfulness from faithfulness.

Back to school blues

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I love Facebook. It has allowed me to keep in touch with friends near and far but this week it has been stealing my joy. This week my news-feed has been packed full of back to school photos. Full of smiling children all neatly dressed in their new school uniforms, pictures of them in their new beautiful classrooms and reunited with their little school friends who they have not seen all summer. They are smiling from ear to ear because they have been reunited with their buddies again and after all that is the best part of school, little friends.

I felt mixed emotions as I scrolled through the endless back to school photos and posts. It was lovely to see the pictures and the joy my friends and family are going through at the moment in the back to school season but I was also a little sad. I felt sad because we were not there experiencing and enjoying the special moment of starting a new school year.

Will started first grade at the beginning of January. We didn’t break for summer holidays as we are currently in California and are still in the middle of winter. The first day of grade one was just another school day, no new classroom, no new teacher, no friends to be reunited with. It was a little sad as we love school, we are homeschooling because of our current situation but we would rather be at school.

I went to church on Sunday evening with a little sadness in my heart. As we were winding down our Sunday afternoon it was Monday morning back home, the first day of school. I sat in church on my own and as I closed my eyes I asked God to help my heart to feel joy once again over the season we are in, away from home, away from family and friends, studying and homeschooling.

The worship team began to play and as I stood, eyes closed. seeking after God, somebody came along side me and she put her hand on my shoulder and she  began to prophesy. This stranger began to tell me how I was such a wonderful teacher and how the children that I teach were growing, learning and flourishing in my care. She went on speaking such beautiful and encouraging words to me. She did not know me at all but she knew God and He was showing her things about me and she listened and obeyed and shared with me. I was floored.

Our God is a good and faithful God. He was right there when I needed Him, reassuring me and reminding me that everything is ok. He has prepared me for this moment, there maybe no new classroom, or school friends, uniforms, schools bags or packed lunches but there is another type of special moments.

Instead there is one on one teaching that meets my little boy at the level he is at, there is more quality time with one another, there are new international friends and our classroom is a a new country to discover and explore. I am seeing my little boy grow and develop at a faster rate then what he would be achieving in a classroom setting. Yes it has it’s challenges but God is continuing to guide us and encourage us through this season.

So today (as I write this it is Monday afternoon) I started our school day with a renewed spirit and a heart of joy. I am thankful for the season I am in and I am thankful for my loving Heavenly Father who has reassured me and kept me on course. Our day was great, attitudes were good, level of work was at a high standard and we had fun with one another and when the power went out and with it our internet connection and therefore our ability to complete our online portion of the school day I did not let that steal my joy. Back to school blues you are not welcome here!

Making a list

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I am making a list.

A list of all the ways God has shown himself faithful to me. So that I may never forget His goodness.

So that when my ground seems to be shaky or my path seems to be hidden from me I can look back upon my list and see all that He has done for me and be reassured that He will continue to do that and even more.

So that my heart will be reassured and remain steadfast in His promises.

So that I can remind myself of His goodness, His faithfulness, His mercy and His love.

So that I can tell others of these things and see faith increased.

So often we can forget all the good things. We forget His faithfulness and the blessing He has poured out for us. We can get weighed down with the unanswered prayers. He has provided for you before and He will provide again.

So I encourage you to make a list to see His faithfulness played out in your life.

Don’t believe the little lies

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At the moment I feel like I am going through a process of having things shaken off of me.

While I was reading my bible this week I came across this verse …..

“Don’t you know that when you allow even a little lie into your heart it can permeate your entire belief system” (Galatians 5:9 Passion translation).

Over the years little lies have made their way into my belief system. Little lies like, you are not skilled or talented enough, you are not capable of achieving great things, you are not worthy, you are not this, you are not that…

I can feel God shaking the little lies off me. Some of them I have believed for a long time so they are taking longer to fall away. As I choose to no longer believe the lies and I start to listen to what God says about me I can discover who I really am. Who He made me to be and not this watered down version that I have become because of the lies I have chosen to believe about myself and have let permeate my belief system.

What are the little lies that you have believed about yourself? Shake them off, listen to what God says about you for you are sons and daughters of the king.

Completely and wonderfully free

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Let me be clear, the anointed one has set us free – not partially but completely and wonderfully free! We must always cherish this truth and stubbornly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past.
Galatians 5 verse 1 of the Passion Translation

I saw this verse played out in my daughter today. We had spent most of the day inside. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful afternoon when we finally made it outside to enjoy the end of the day. When little Em was released from the house, as soon as the front door opened she ran out with a smile on her face screaming “weeee” as she ran down the path to freedom. In that moment she felt wonderful. She was free from the indoors and now free to run and to have fun in the sunshine. She climbed the little hill near our apartment and would run down so fast that she screamed with delight, she is a little thrill junky.

When it was time to come back indoors little Em was not happy. She hung her head and pretended not to listen. As I called her name for her to come back inside her little stubborn nature kicked in and she started to move in the other direction. Not helpful for me, her mother who is trying to beckon her inside but perfect as an illustration for this verse above!

We are set free – completely and wonderfully free. Like the freedom of my little girl running in the wide open spaces and feeling the beautiful sunshine on her face. His grace and His love covers us. We have been redeemed.

We must stubbornly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past. Instead pretend you can not hear it beckoning, run in the opposite direction and stubbornly refuse to go back. Let your old habits fall away, let go of the fear, anxiety, shame whatever it is let it go and do not pick it back up again. Easier said then done I know but just imagine what you can do once you no longer live in fear or suffer from anxiety. Just imagine the person you can become when you no longer carry the shame of your past. That is freedom, completely and wonderfully free by the grace of God.